Mama

Mama visited for the first time today. I wanted to hug her and tell her that I love her and that I'm sorry. I miss Jerry. I often worry about how he'll think of me from now on. He's a good brother. A better one than I am, that's for sure. Mama told me about him and the neighbors next to us. She told me about lots of things things I can't remember. All I can think about is this trial. It consumes me.